Expressions

interesting title isn't it? how come snookers be in expressions. i will explain. its snooking myself in these difficult situations. i knew this day was coming, i prepared for it. but still, it just crushed me. it happened atlast. i am weak. i gave in. its confusing and intimidating.
the girl whom i used to hold in my arms was right there in front of me, and still i had to behave as if i am a complete stranger. the very arms that i held were inches away from me. the very cheeks where i used to kiss were a feet away, the very waist i used to hold her with was in hand's reach. but alas! she is a stranger to me now. or atleast, i need to act like that. it was disheartening to see that. i couldnt take it. i tried to walk away.
with moistened eyes, it was difficult to see the situation, let alone understand it. who is responsible for this? why am i getting hurt so much and she just enjoying her way ?
i guess how you handle these situations is what makes you the person you are. i am going to handle it gently. nicely and firmly.
its a kind of situation where i am needed, but i dont want to be there. and hence i would be there, but will be hard on me for that. its snooking myself. i love snookers but not like this.