Expressions

Finishing up Da Vinci code was itself a big achievement for me, considering
the fact tht I read 400 and odd pages of a novel. But as I finished the book,
I feel the insignificance of my living in this world. After all, what difference
am I making to this world? Apart from that, what exactly am I doing? What
am I learning out of this living? What am I destined to do? Is this mundane
job is what am I supposed to do? What is the Almighty’s plan for me, if there
is someone like that and if he Binduwouldsaymalechauvanistforsaying0he0 or
she, whoever it is? Or is it that I choose my own destiny. If that is the case,
what is that I want to choose? Definitely not what I am doing right now. Then
what is it? I have no clear idea, but I hope to get it clear pretty soon. It is
not a requirement that I need to have just one set of goals to summarize my
whole life. It could be the case that there are a set of goals in different fields.
Da Vinci’s resume has been the most impressive resume I ever saw. I am not
looking for such an eloborate one, but something that makes me feel good.
What does it take to be another Da Vinci? Can I achieve it? May be not, but
can I atleast be 0.1 of him? If so, I can try to be better than that.
The more I read about the philosophy, the art and the nature in general, I
wonder what and how much amount of secrets this Mother Nature has hidden
in it, and how much was added by the great minds that went past in our history?
Its been almost 100 years since the proposition of Theory of Relativity, I wonder
if there are atleast 100 people in this world, who completely understand the
implications of it. There is so much to discover in science itself. But ultimately
I feel it boils down the love one has to conquer the mysteries that this world
has shrouded in its deceiving protective embrace. I just wish in discovering all
those mysteries we do not spoil the great mightiness of this seemingly simple
but most intricate work ever witnessed.
Just think of the human body. Its just unbelievable how different organs work
unitedly to work as a human being. Its with such intricate details that nature
has moulded us. Its with such delicacy Mother Nature has produced us. Exactly
what is required at the correct places. No wonder it took ages for it to mould
like this. I guess any master piece takes ages to develop to the perfection. I
heard it tooks 9 years for Da Vinci to complete the most acclaimed Monalisa.
No wonder it took so many years for Nature to deliver a good as beautiful and
complicated as the human being.
I sometimes wonder what I am in the quest for life? Is it a thing, or is it
spirutual, humanitarian or what is it? Is it spreading love across the world? If
so, will I have someone special that I can identify? If not, will the person who
thinks I am special be able to take it? My mind is brimming with questions,
with no apparent answers in the near future, or as far as I can see.
What does it really mean to be a friend? Or for that matter loved on? what
is that we are looking for in the other person? Is it necessary that I should
be chasing a person in my life? Or is it also true that I am chasing far more
materialistic than that? Is is materialistic or spiritual? What is it? How do I
know about this?
I feel that I need to clean up a little dirt from this world. Doesnt mean that I
should take up a broom and start sweeping. If thats what I meant, I should be
clearing stuff from my bedroom.
I wonder how much of the actual so called ”‘Holy Scripts” still exists in their
Holy nature and are untouched by the political games of the human beings. But
the bigger question is, should they still be holding good if they existed today in
their pristine form? After all they are also written by the then existing human
minds, which might be better or worse than what exist now. But I am sure they
were far more skillfull and knowledgeable in terms of the societal issues.
Is the main reason behind our existence to persist and propogate our human
kind in this once vast but now small world? For some reason, everything seems
to be just for existence. Only few human minds seem to be out of that rat-race
and achieve far more interesting than the mundane life that others follow.

Thats the biggest oxymoron I ever heard. No love in this world is unconditional. Especially between a guy and a girl. For some reason, I feel its the nature itself like that. Look at any species in the nature, its always male that lowers its head in front of the female. Including the humans. I never seem to understand why only guys should bend down on knees and propose a girl, and why not the other way around? Why the girl expects the guy to make the first move? And furthermore, they seem not to be interested in any physical stuff though they need it. Why?
What is conditional love? One of my friends says that his girl friend always says, "you love me unconditionally, irrespective of what i do" but she would complain on everything he does. Now expecting unconditional love itself is on a condition kind. And more so if the person who says it doesnt follow what he/she says.
Unconditional love - what does that mean anyway? You just constantly love someone irrespective of what you face? Who loved whom like that? Would the person who loved be able to take it when the person whom he/she loved turns a back to them?
May be I should understand that there are hardly anything logical in love. It doesnt make sense for me, but may be thats the way it is. If so, isnt there a single girl who is equally confused as I am, and looking for a logic in love? Somewhere, someone is searching for the logic as I am looking for and someday we both should meet.

Hi All,
This is my first blog on net. Just to see if this works...